When I first launched this blog site, I was hoping to have it organized, with well thought-out blogs. I wanted to discuss and rant about how the LGBT community was ignoring their elders, for I could see that horizon just around the corner of life - and it was difficult to find resources for and about LGBT Elders.
Instead, I started posting my favorite music videos and sharing other people's content. I was avoiding putting my thoughts down - I just didn't want to really look at the situation looming ahead of me. Oh yes - I DID post some original content about my road trip this past June, in picture form. However, I had, yet, to really "write" about something.
So, today, I decided would be the day I would put "something" out there, even if it is just this "rambling". Learning to blog, for some (read "me") can be difficult. Being able to ramble meaningful content is even harder. Every time I have sat down to type out an article, I stop. Questions race through my mind - "Will they like it?" "Will anyone bother to read it?" "Is it too bland?" Or the self-defeating inner-self surfaces, and says, "you can't do it", "it's already been said", "not too original", "You sound like you're ranting, not discussing" (this one I DO tend to do). I was looking for the "perfect" blog to write. I was trying to be the perfect blogger everyone would come flocking to. Didn't matter I had no meaningful content to share, or even anything ready, or any sense of organized thought - I just wanted to be called a "blogger". This thinking was my downfall. This thinking IS my downfall.
So, there. I said it. I put "something" out there. Nothing fancy, nothing trendy or cool. Just "something".
I really do hope to put together some meaningful articles, journalling about me, LGBT Elders & community discussion. You will just need to wait a little longer for my thoughts to come together, for the words to flow coherently - for me to kick myself in the "ass" to sit down and REALLY do it.
In the meantime, enjoy all the useless videos, pictures, humor, etc. that I will continue to post until that day!
Ev
